Monday, November 23, 2009

Fix You

sometimes, all you can do is
choose to love
and
choose to forgive.

oh, and listen to coldplay.

when you try your best, but you don't succeed
when you get what you want, but not what you need
when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone, but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Love Is

i am the luckiest and happiest girl in the world.
i still can't believe i'm engaged.
it feels too good to be true.

here is the proposal story:
brian and jen [my matron of honor] were having a joint birthday party at the coup, a restaurant on 17th ave. a lot of our camp friends were there, as well as some special people in brian and jen's lives. it was a lot of fun to celebrate together and spend time with wonderful people. after being at the party for a couple hours, jen pulls me outside to go for a walk. she was being kind of suspicious, so i started to expect something was coming. when we got back to the restaurant, everyone had gathered in one part of the restuarant. brian sat me down and drew my attention to a silver box on the table. i picked it up and opened it, seeing the most beautiful diamond ring. brian got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.

it was completely unexpected, but also completely wonderful. we got to share it with so many people who have supported us in our relationship from the beginning.

wedding planning has been going full force. turns out my mom is a wedding planner, but no one, including her, knew it yet. i'm so busy with school that i've really needed her help, and she has been there for me 100%. we are getting married on july 10 and i couldn't be more excited about it.

turns out guest lists are the most awkward thing ever. for the people we can afford to invite, there will be a beautiful reception. and the ceremony will be open to everyone who wants to come. it will be a wonderful day.

i can't wait to be mrs. merritt!